Day Five/Home: 09/03/09

1:15 pm

I don't remember what I blogged yesterday. Well the family went to Animal Kingdom and Downtown Disney Shopping village. I stayed at the hotel. I rested, read my books, got food at the caf, packed, and organized all that. They came back; we packed more, settled in for the night. I was horribly awakened at 3:45 am, dozed until 3:54 am when my foot was shaken and I was firmly told to GET UP. Got ready, left the suite at 4:39 am. The Disney Magical Express airport shuttle bus arrived about 4:50-4:55 am. It was NOT magical. Two stops after picking us up, & a 40 minute ride to the airport. The bus played music from some of the rides at the parks. It SUCKED. I was so thankful to own an iPod. We got to the airport about 5:45 & checked our bags. We headed to the restrooms and then to Starbucks. Tazo Tea: Sweetened Shaken Iced Tea Passion Lemonade. And an espresso brownie. I discovered I lost the tie-belt to my favorite sweater while we were at Starbucks. I was so upset, still am. Gracie claimed she saw it in the restroom but didn't realize it was mine (I wonder so often, Where is her head?? But I know I'm like that too and our dad. ADHD/ADD is NOT cool). She ran back to look. She didn't find it sadly, so I went and found the sweetest friendliest most cheerful janitor to ask where the lost and found was. I loved him. His English was not impressive but he was so sweet. Mum and I headed over to the lost and found. They didn't open until 7. I wrote down the number & email. I still have to call them. I'm going to ASAP. We went through security after waiting for the 11-year-old to go to the ladies' AGAIN. We got to our gate and boarded in about 10 minutes. I closed my eyes and had my hands over my face when we went up. I hate flying and I hate heights. I read my book during the flight and it was somewhat enjoyable. The flight that is, my book is great. As soon as the seat belt light clicked on, and the captain told us we were beginning our descent, my stomach nose dived. Nauseous for the rest of the flight. I wasn't ok until I got to baggage claim. We got off the plane and I went down there while everyone else hit the restrooms. I'd gotten three of our bags by the time they got there. We got our bags, Daddy picked up the car, and we went HOME. My nervous-anxiety-OCD kicked in and I was in a mad rush to unpack and organize and clean. Like panic attack, freaking out, I couldn't handle it not being all taken care of. So I did. We were home about 11:15 and I was unpacked by 12:45. And that’s entirely unpacked. Toiletries, clothes, shoes, carry on, everything. I'm folding the laundry now and I have 5 days worth of newspapers to read. It’s so amazing to be home. I'm so tired. I have things to do though. Goodbye Florida. ...Hello my home in New Hampshire.

I messed up this post somehow. Don't know how. Not pleased.

Day Three: 09/01/09

5:56 pm

Yesterday was the Magic Kingdom. Mum, me, S & G went early-ish and did a bunch of things. Sorry, I'm exhausted. I'll list what we did later or something.

We came back here about 2 pm and rested, had some food then went back with Daddy this time. We did more things. About 5:30 ish the thunder and lightning started. I don't remember when it started to pour but I know we were all in the gift shop for Pirates of the Caribbean right after that ride (awesome ride btw). It was raining for about 4 hours. Alot of people including us hide in shops and shows, on rides, under awnings...Sophie put on a poncho and braved the torrents after about 20 minutes. Us ladies put on ponchos too and followed her after she came back from scouting. Dad opted to stay there, positive it would "let up in about 10 minutes". He was very very wrong. The four of us (Mum, me, Soph and Grace) kept going and made it back to Main St. and went shopping. We're women, it’s what we do. He caught up with us eventually (still pouring) and eventually we went over to Tony & Ann's for dinner. Every place there was packed. Didn't matter if it was food, a shop, a ride, a place with a roof meant there was a mob. T&A's was freezing. Sophie & I were absolutely frozen. Food was good. These restaurants need a better selection for real. I had gelato for dessert. Amazing!! We watched the parade afterwards then headed back to the hotel on a bus. My sneakers had been soaked through for a good two hours. I was miserable. When we got back and I took off my shoes and socks my poor little feet were just so cold. And wet. My socks were soaked; I had to dry off my feet. This morning my sneakers were still wet so I wore my flip-flops.

Today was Epcot. The five of us left here by 11 and my family is actually still there. I left about 4 pm, after we'd gone through all the Countries. The Countries are what I love at Epcot. After those, I was done. I'm realizing that all signs (this vacation & the Cape in June) point to me not able to handle vacations. Trips away, maybe just with my family or maybe trips in general. All I know is I am stressed, and worried, on edge, irritable, and more right now than at home. I'm trying to have fun. But I can't relax. I am completely unable to relax. I feel like my entire person is wound up and I can't release it. How horrible is it that I'm homesick? I do love Disney World but all I want to do is go home. I'm thankful we're here and are blessed to be able to come but I’m done. I can’t handle it much more. I just miss home and everyone who’s there so so much.

Day One - 08/30/09

12:37 pm

So I'm in Orlando, on the Disney Resort Magical Express shuttle/bus service. I'm very tired and hungry. This bus has adjustable foot rests though. My 5 foot tall body is very thankful. My feet are dangling a good six inches off the floor otherwise. I'll have pics up on Facebook when we get home I think. Lots of stops, but ours is next, All-Star Music Resort!

10:23 pm

Long day. Long day. I was very stressed out towards the end, I took off my rings to apply sunblock and when I went to put them back on, my wedding ring from Mia was gone. I was in the food court at that point so I went back up to the suite and searches. Then called my mum in tears because that was just the last straw. I was mentally, physically, emotionally unable to handle anything else especially losing my wedding band. I was sitting on my chair-soon-to-be-pulled-out-bed-evil-army-cot waiting for her to get up there because she was coming for Sophie's sunglasses. I go to put my other rings back on. My wedding ring was stuck inside my spoon ring. I burst into tears all over again. The family went out to MGM, and I stayed there at the suite resting. I was just done. Could. Not. Cope. Now its 10:30 and I've got a double cheeseburger and a milkshake and I'm about to go to sleep and wake up at 7 am so we can be at the Magic Kingdom when it opens at 9.

Quick post before I go shower.

• Well, the aforementioned shower
• Throw my laundry in the wash.
• Make myself presentable.
• Go to the Loop to pick up the Sophster
• Go to Target around-ish the Loop. I don't remember its exact location.
• Come home.
• Potentially going to Rocko's tonight for some shows. I don't know yet. Alex Ford needs to give me a heads up on that.
• Either going to the show or not.
• If I am I'll be out lateeee.
• If I'm not, than I might try to go to bed early haha.
• Pack anything else that I can tonight
• Waking up at either 4:30 am or 5 am tomorrow.
• Finish packing entirely. Note: must make a list.
• Leaving home at 6 am.
• At the airport by 6:45-7 am
• Check our bags, go through security, GET BREAKFAST
• Get to our terminal
• Plane is supposed to leave at 8:10
• Plane is supposed to arrive in Florida at 10 or 11 something. I don't remember.

Helllooo Sunshine!!!

I don't know if I missed anything. I hope not. I'm sad because I'll only be able to blog through my phone and that's only 160 characters :( I'll post like that, then consolidate them all when I get home. That will work.

Thank goodness for Twitter and Facebook mobile. I don't know what I do without them.

The new Skillet CD is good. Its called "Awake".

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My brain is muddled tonight.

I was up until 6 am reading. I fell asleep and woke up when the the set alarm for my vyvanse went off at 9:15, and then at 9:20 to assure I wake up. I remember getting the bottle and opening it and then closing it and drinking from my water bottle.

My mom woke me up at 5 pm. I wasn't interested in getting up. When she woke me up I was thinking it was like 1 pm or something. I looked at my phone, nope 5 pm. Huh thats not cool.

I got up and found my vyvanse pill under my pillow. That explains why I wasn't able to wake up. Even if I am up until 6 am, if I take my vyvanse, I'm still good to go. Apparently when I don't take it, I'm asleep no matter what. Which I remember from past experience but its been a long time since I have experienced it.

I'm going to avoid that again. It literally uses an entire day. In my head it might as well still be Tuesday, or its some unknown unnamed day because I didn't have a day.

That sucks.

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My living room is run amuck with teenagers. Specifically, Sophie, Meghan, Becki and Ryan. I sooo can't wait for Disney World.

There won't be other people!!! Besides everyone at Disney, but no friends! I'm sorry but I so often wish I could kick people out of my house.

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So the past three hours I've been awake haven't been bad.

...Although news update, the Red Sox game has been delayed by an injury!! Nooo!

Ahh man. I must go figure out things. Such as food. I'm hungry again. Also packing.

This will be quite a night.

This has not been a pleasant day

I got on the computer to blog. That was 3 and a half hours ago.

Things to blame for the horrible delay:

• photos that I'd emailed to myself and were editing. I tried my hand at Photoshop. That program is complicated. Time consuming.
• facebook. I was having a chat conversation with someone. Very involved.
• Bringing groceries upstairs.
• dealing with family members who kept coming over and distracting me.

It's been a long day and I'm finally getting to blog, just as my mother has requested I get off. Oh well, I'm going to write anyway.

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Its Sunday. I really hate Sundays. If I don't have a church I can go to then Sundays feel pointless, empty and lazy. I don't like any of those "feels".

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Sophie got home from her weekend away with the O'briens in Portsmouth. She had fun.

Gracie has been making eggs because she has this pan and she adores using it.

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I got my nose pierced. Re-pierced. I really like it, I always have. I pierced it when I was 16.

That was a messy, emotional, very angry, angst-y time. I lost my bedroom door for it and couldn't have it back until I took out the piercing. I stuck with that for about 8 months. I figured out various substitutes for a door and it worked out pretty good.

I don't remember what it was that made me decided I wanted my door back. Oh wait, yes I do. I decided I liked the look of not having one again. I let my parents think that I was doing it out of repentance. Nope, I just decided I didn't want it anymore.

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I realized yesterday I am my mother's Ann-with-an-e Shirley. Mabel. Pollyanna (although my outlook is not always as cheerful). I can't remember many other wild female movie or book characters, but I know that I fit all of them. I told this to my mom yesterday.

Here's the story:

I had removed a screen from one of my windows and let it drop to the ground because 1, it was wet and 2, it was too big to pull inside. Well, in about 20 seconds I hear my mother coming up the stairs more quickly then usual and I very quickly close my window and turn the other way on my bed.

She knocks and comes in and says "What are you doing?" in that voice which I know means "Molly I don't know what to do with you, you never cease to do something to catch me off guard and shock me, etc".

I answered that I was taking a picture and the screen was in my way. I asked if she'd been at the computer (where the window below mine is so she would've seen and heard the screen drop).

She had.

She had her usual reaction to my unexpected antics and asked me to go bring the screen inside.

It was raining, so I dashed outside and brought it in. She told me to go hide it in the basement because my dad would freak out if he found out I'd taken it out. The previous times I've taken my screens out, I was running away and leaving through my second story window.

After, I told her that I'd decided I was her Anne and her Mabel and she said "Yes, yes you are!" in her exasperated oh I love you and I don't know what to do with you tone.

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That was yesterday. My nose was also yesterday. She did not notice that which I was expecting because she is not very observant. I wasn't going to say anything to anyone either, I'm just going to let them notice. My dad was the one who noticed. Which figures because he was the one who was so upset over it when I was 16. And the rule was that I had to wait until I was 18 to get anything else pierced because then it would be my decision. He's very prompt to tell me about the consequences and how I'll regret it someday. About everything. E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

Its infuriating.

Mum suggested MINUTES after I kept my cool with my dad's little speech that he should take me out driving today because he really hasn't ever gotten the chance. I reacted something like, what the hell, NO. She was going over to the computer with me and I said to her that today was not a good day to go driving with Dad and I had to explain that since he had seen my nose and wasn't happy about it, the driving would consist of him lecturing me while I'm driving. She immediately saw my point. Which is good but annoying because she doesn't realize these things before she suggests them.

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We got the exciting news that we are going to Disney World a week from today. Very pleased about that, I do love love love Disney.

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I'm tired and frankly, stressed out. There's been too much going on today and I feel somewhat picked on. I'm going to my room. Its my hiding place.

What's wrong about that is that I feel the need to hide.