You know what I noticed? I never wrote about the thing that caused my night to just hit the bottom. I never wrote about anything good that happened today either. I'm a mess tonight. I actually turned my phone off. I don't think I've ever turned the EnV3 off. It's off now. Matt said he would keep texting me and I love that he said that. But I can't have it on. I can't read texts, I can't. If he was here that's different. I want nothing more than to curl up in his arms. My first choice would be Jesus' arms. And since that's a little hard to accomplish (someday Lord, You will hold me for a hundred years, and wipe all my tears away, before they even fall), Matt is my second choice. I just saw him yesterday and already I miss him so much. I can't, don't want to keep writing. Tomorrow I want to explain. Or at least tell about the good part of today. I'm going to get off the computer. I would so LOVE to have a laptop (or even an iTouch for goodness sake!) so that I could write again in my room if I had the urge.