crazy life

I'm so busy! I'm working or sleeping or at work (not working) or random little things. I question that I might be working my young life away but it seems to be my only option right now and to be honest, it keeps me sane.

I'm off one of my meds (might have mentioned this already, will keep it short), as of October and I just started decreasing another. granted, February isn't necessarily the best time of year to do it, but I'm stable. I just have to make sure my mind doesn't trick me into thinking I'm THAT much better. I long to be free from the chains of multiple prescriptions and the cost and just the feeling that sometimes goes with them. but I am more thankful that I live in a time and place that allows me to have these things. I'm alive today because of my mom, my medical access and my Lord Jesus. my liferafts, keeping me from going under or pulling me up when I've gone down.