People talk. A whole freaking lot.
I've learned never to lie about who I am (cuz really, why should I?) so when I hear the things people are saying, after the initial shock wears off, I sort of feel like laughing. I get that you want to tear me down, but really now, c'mon.
Sometimes the truth is worse then the fiction that's spreading like a disease, and if I'm actually telling you something worse then what you've been hearing, why would you think I'm lying? I could just go along with it cuz its better than what's truth. but I'm not going along with someone else's versions of my life.
I don't care what people think, but I do care when what they think changes the way you look at me.
In a nutshell, if I didn't tell you then it isn't true and if you aren't sure then get the hell ova here and ask me yoself!
I'm tired of people putting themselves in my business like they think I don't know they all wanna see me break. Trying to make me look like a fool but all you've done is make a fool out of yourself.
I respect the person I am and no matter how much my life has sucked (and oh it has), it helped shape me into who I am today and I'll be damned if someone tries to rewrite my history.
Where were you the moment the twin towers fell? I know where I was.
Cuz unless you've started living in my head and living my life for me (ooh did you learn to time-travel?!), then you have no idea where the hell I've been, what I've done, the exact words I've said and how much I can love someone.
You haven't walked in my shoes, so don't act like you did, talking all crazy.
The longer you talk, the stronger I become. This game you're playing with MY life, the more lies you tell, the harder it's gonna be when you lose. Cuz I've already won this game.
It's my life. My history, my past, my present, my future.
it's not about you. it's about me.
enjoy the reality check.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
fo the ppl runnin' their damn mouths and the ppl that dunno who'da believe
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Hmm I've overused "crazy life"....
*delete* crazy life!
Life is crazy
And last but not least, my favorite holiday:
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Jung personality test
| INFJ - "Author". Strong drive and enjoyment to help others. Complex personality. 1.5% of total population. |
personality tests by similarminds.com
Thursday, February 17, 2011
I'm going to confuse you. I'm going to use weird words and then use normal ones in wacky sounding sentences.
~I talk to inanimate objects, form real relationships with cars, and usually have some sort of a to-do list for every day.
~I'm always cold. If hoodies and sweaters were attractive 100% of the time, that's all you'd see me in.
~I love kids. I want 8. If you met me, you'd think I'm insane. Some words frequently used to describe me: short, tiny, petite, midget, little person, (and) little munchkin. Getting the picture?
~I'm a fan of crazy. I think there's boring-crazy, good-crazy and bad-crazy.
~I'm a Christian. I live for He who died to save my life and nothing can ever tear us apart. He is with me wherever I go, so why should I fear? I live by Jeremiah 29:11 (among other wonderful words).
~I'm Pro-Life. I believe life begins from conception and that abortion is murder. I won't condemn or judge those who have had an abortion. That's just plain stupid. I only want to talk to you and be there if you need someone.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
crazy life
I'm so busy! I'm working or sleeping or at work (not working) or random little things. I question that I might be working my young life away but it seems to be my only option right now and to be honest, it keeps me sane.
I'm off one of my meds (might have mentioned this already, will keep it short), as of October and I just started decreasing another. granted, February isn't necessarily the best time of year to do it, but I'm stable. I just have to make sure my mind doesn't trick me into thinking I'm THAT much better. I long to be free from the chains of multiple prescriptions and the cost and just the feeling that sometimes goes with them. but I am more thankful that I live in a time and place that allows me to have these things. I'm alive today because of my mom, my medical access and my Lord Jesus. my liferafts, keeping me from going under or pulling me up when I've gone down.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Flipsyde "Happy Birthday"
Happy Birthday...so make a wish
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
I need to go to bed....
I honestly wanted to write more tonight, but it's almost 4 am and I have a doctors appointment at 9:30. I think I have an ear infection.
I won't forget my blog though. I have much more to write.
I'll make a list of what I still need to write on. I love lists.
- College! Changed some things around in that department.
- My car <3 haha, I'll have to upload a picture of her* back bumper. It's very eye-catching. DEFINITELY makes a statement.
- My family.
- My friends, the mostly nonexistent ones.
- My social life, which is oddly a bit more existent than my friends.
- Soulfest 2010 with Sophie!! What a great day that was.
- and other random things I'm sure will pop into my head eventually.
Papa Gino's Part 1.
Remember that new job? I've been there for 2 and a half months now and I really truly love it. It's at Papa Gino's and I am officially a grill cook. I'm trained in almost all of the other areas (except the pizza bench! but someday...) and I honestly do enjoy working. I like going to work and I like the people there.
In my first 2 weeks I was trained on the grill side and the telephones. Gasp. I was scared. Very scared. I hate the phone. I stutter and stammer and get nervous and go into a real tizzy over it (Okay, so I added some dramatic effects). I listened in on about 10 delivery/take out orders, practiced with the computer in the Training 101 mode and then it was my turn. Eeeek. I would guess that someone had to rescue me and the poor guest on the other end at least a dozen times before I got even half the hang of it.
But somehow, I did finally grasp the concept of the phone and the computers. There's a saying "He/she took to it like a fish to water." The meaning of it obvious so I won't try to explain. That was me with the phones and the computers.
The higher-ups implemented this "test call" thing a while ago. I'm sure it's been done many times in the past before I was there, but to my newbie knowledge a new round of test calls started several weeks ago.
It almost sounds self-explanatory doesn't it? The idea is that people from the corporate offices or possibly some willing guests (sorta like a secret shopper thing) call the restaurants and place an order for take-out and they test the team member on their skills. Politeness, helpfulness, all that, but also something just as important: Upselling-. What is up-selling?
Example A:
Guest: I'd like a large pepperoni pizza.
Okay, now me as the team member on the phone has a few options for up-selling.
1: Would you like extra cheese? (Easiest question ever, and really, who doesn't want some more cheese?)
2. Would you like to make that an extra large pizza? (Ahem, it's 14 inches versus 17 inches!)
3. Would you like to make that a PapaRoni pizza? (The PapaRoni is in our speciality pizza menu. It's 50% MORE cheese and pepperoni.)
I like to be helpful. I actually will go out of my way to be helpful even to the point where I'm doing too many things at once. Sweetly asking a guest if they'd like something else to make their meal more delicious and special even in a small way makes me feel helpful.
All of the phone calls are recorded and all the phone calls that were test calls are played back for the GM's, etc. I remember having three test calls. All three of them, I aced it. Passed with flying colors, all 100% well done. I actually like getting the phone now because of the test calls and the fact I like up-selling now. Weird right? It's good. I love it.
I'm very happy that I've become this skilled in it, considering how worried I was in the beginning.
Papa Gino's - Part 1
Well...The Celtics lost. Fyi.
That's pathetic. I haven't written a word since June freaking 4th. That's sad. Alright. I promise, everyone (or no one at this point, realllyyy sorry) I'll do my best not to have such long and lengthy (oh hey, same thing) lapses in my blogging's again. Ever.
So the Celtics lost. It was a beautiful game that was tough for both sides to watch (never mind actually play) and the general consensus when all was said and done and Kobe Bryant was bathed in sweat, tears and champagne, clutching his championship ring like a life raft...both teams played well. It was a good game to watch and both teams really did a great job. The End....until this year!!!!
Disney World was interesting. I'm glad that I went but I learned a few things (and I think my mom did too).
1) Florida in the months of October to April is intolerable. I vowed to never visit FL in that time frame ever, ever again. And just to be safe, I'm going with November to March. It was just soooo hot and humid.
2) I was emotionally more stable than when we went at the end of last summer, but I'm not quite stable enough yet. I did really well, better than I thought I would and probably my mom too, but it was very hard for me, especially as the week wore on. I broke down a few times and it sucked.
3) I can handle plane rides as long as I take something to relax me about a half hour before getting on the plane. It was a genius idea that we came up with and it helped greatly. I won't forget that.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Celtics
Oh yes, the Celtics made it to the NBA Finals! They're playing the LA Lakers, yet again. They lost game 1 to the Lakers last night. It was not good. I was cringing. I hope they kick it into gear like they did when they squashed the Orlando (Not so) Magic last week. I'm very excited about this.
