I feel like a hummingbird! Zipping place to face so fast you can't move your head fast enough to follow it. Only this is all happening in my head. My concentration is at zero right now.
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I just created a facebook group and event for the Pro-Life Day of Silent Solidarity day which is October 20th and you should join!
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=154211587653 and http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=186672933297
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I made the group, added an event and the whole time people are texting me and oh I'm being distracted my mom and Sophie in the kitchen and even music was distracting me. I would really like to have some concentration. I can't concentrate on anything.
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Sophie and I had our phones reset at Verizon last night so hopefully they'll store our notes without randomly deleting them. Its happened twice to me. Awful. I have all of them backed up on my old phone now but I'm not sure if I'm willing to retype them into my new phone AGAIN just yet. This time I had 20 notes erased. The first time I don't know how many, but so many special quotes and little snippets of conversations were lost. So hopefully Verizon fixed that for us.
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Today is the one year anniversary of Nana's death. Its hard to think she's been gone a whole year. But I just think of how incredibly happy she is right now, with Jesus, in His arms, fully focused on Him. I could never want her to come back to us here in the world when she's in the place of unimaginable glory and beauty. He wiped away all her tears, and He took away all her pain and that brings me so much peace. She is happy, so I'm going to be happy for her. She's been gone from us for a year, but for a year she's been uninterruptedly happy. For one year she has been healed. I can and do miss her but she's in The Better Place. I can't ever wish that she would come back.
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I printed out the spiritual content sections of The Invention of Lying and Year One off of http://www.pluggedin.com and I'm going to make notes on each part that was inappropriate, disrespectful and all out blasphemous. The Invention of Lying was a funny enjoyable movie, but I wouldn't see it again, in or outside of theaters because it was very offensive to me in how disrespectful to my God it was. Incredibly so.
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I have a bedtime. :O Yes. Its a shock. I need a sleep schedule. I've gone to bed at all hours of the night and its not helping the quality of my life at all. My bedtime is 12 am. The goal is lights out, phone away, eyes closed by 12 am. Twice I've been late going to bed because I've been getting ready for bed slowly or something but my body is getting accustomed to it and falls asleep pretty readily at 12. I'm having issues with the wake up time which I've designated right now as 9 am. This is the body who needs hours and hours and hours upon hours of sleep. Its awful. I need to keep the wake up time at 9 am if possible. So what I will try to do is set the bedtime back more. Tonight I think I will try for 11:30. This is all interesting because a few weeks ago I was notified my curfew had been reinstated much to my loud and vocal dismay. 1 am Friday's and Saturday's and 12 am on all "school nights" which is complete bullshit in my mind, then and now. But the bedtime has meant I'm actually coming home from places before my curfew anyway. Which honestly isn't a hard thing for me, its the curfew that bothers me, the limit that I am being ordered home by a certain time. It bothers me in so many ways.
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Last night I was thinking of the quote "Time heals all wounds". At first I had a sarcastic thought that whoever had said that must not have had many wounds in his/her lifetime. Then I went on to think that that adage actually is true. The key is that you have to let time heal. Time can't heal if you can't let go. You have to let go, you have to want to heal. Time will heal. Time does heal. Time has healed me over many, many things that I thought I would never recover from and for a time was in a very dark place over. But eventually I did let go, and time did heal me. But you have to let go. You have to want to heal. And time will heal you.
I looked up who was the person who had said that four word phrase that has been said many times and many ways. There were a few names that were given for some version of the saying but the one that came up the most, that was most agreed upon and frankly, that made the most sense was the one said by Menander in ancient Greece, about 300 B.C.
Meander's words were this: "Time is the healer of all necessary evils".
And how accurate is that?