I want to blog. I have a migraine. Christmas is sooner than I want. I'm having some problems right now. I wish that writing them down had the power to ease them. Sometimes all I wonder is why? Why do I have this body with so many problems? How can I keep holding on when I have these days where it's a struggle to breathe? And I worry, God how do I keep trusting you when it feels like all hope is gone? How do I find the strength to live another day just like the last? I really wish my mom could find the internet card so I could write on the laptop. I can't downstairs. Too loud, too bright, Too much.

*I combined this into one post on Friday morning. Texted posts are annoying with the fact they can only be 160 characters or less. But it helps with the need to write.*